I sure as hell didn't stab myself in the eye with a flower just for kicks, so yeah, Retrospec.

[It was extremely painful and probably one of the most horrifying days of her life, but who needs the details!]

Whatever my "past" self is, she sure as fuck isn't human, and I want nothing to do with that bullshit.

If she isn't human then what is she ?

A demon?

[U M ]

Honestly? I have no fucking idea.

["Intoner." She's heard it over and over at this point, but she still has no context for what it actually means. Her sisters are treated like goddesses while she's the monster out trying to kill them. Even after trying to look up the word, all she can guess is that it has something to do with singing.

Probably because of her magic singing or whatever. Still, while she has a pretty clear picture of what an "intoner" can do, that doesn't tell her at all what it is.]

Hope you never have to find out, Rose. I don't know what my other self is either.

[he's part of the club too. Nanashi shrugs off screen.]

Is there something wrong with wanting to remain ignorant?

I don't think so. [She pauses, and then:] But there's something scary about not knowing either.

[Whenever she thinks back on how she acted before she got the app, well... She hates it. Even if she was blissfully ignorant, maybe even happier, there's something creepy about it.]

I suppose. It's a pain to think about either way, right?

I'm alright as long as I get through the day. The app doesn't really leave us with a choice.

I hate that the most. [They're just being subjected to its whims instead of getting to choose if they want it or not...]

Tell me about it. If we got to choose for ourselves on what to do with this, that'd be one thing. Instead, we get dumped with the worst kind of bullshit and get told that we still have to live our "normal" lives except hey, head's up, the world might be ending or some dumb shit like that.

[SHE'S THOUGHT LONG AND HARD ABOUT HOW AWFUL THIS IS.]

It is the worst kind of bullshit. Who the hell cares? I just wanted to graduate from highschool and escape my garbage family situation. [AHHHH]

Now I've gotta deal with that and retrospec. No fucking thanks.

[THIS IS WHY NANASHI LIKES ROSE SHE'S SO HONEST. ]

Had enough trouble before all this happened. You remember those assholes from before in the alley, right? They seem harmless in comparison to what Retrospec's capable of .... Shit.

I bet. Life was hard enough before Retrospec, but now everything I had issues with seems like child's play compared to the shit we get now. Christ, I miss when making rent for the month was my biggest concern.

[Back in the day......... Now every month is "what possible world-ending shit is going on this time," or "what am I gonna remember that makes me hate myself even more."]

Do you still find it hard to make end's meet, Rose?

[He figures that she's just managing it somehow. Nanashi doesn't want to hassle Rose with too many questions since she's the type to get angry easily.]

I don't know about your work...or income. It must be hard juggling jobs with this.

I get around alright now, yeah. You really don't need to be worrying about that kinda stuff though.

[Leave the adult problems to adults, not to mention that he doesn't have any reason to worry about her problems like that. What's accepting concern from other people?? Unsure.]

I only have one job now though. It definitely beats having a dozen part-time gigs.

Ugh, juggling a bunch of part time jobs would kill a man.

[He doesn't want to end up like that in the summer. Okay Rose! Fine, he won't worry. ]

It's cool as long as you get around somehow.

Exactly. Take it easy while you can because shit's gonna get way worse soon enough.

[And that's not even taking Retrospec shit into account...... Life is just life.]

It's already worse enough. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet.

[He shakes his head.]

All I know is that I'm not going to become a full time thug. Gotta start thinking about the future more seriously...

[Gross.]

And that's why you oughta take school more seriously. That's supposed to help you figure out this kinda shit, right?

[Not that she can honestly even imagine herself going to college, but school definitely did wonders for the rest of her family.]

Think one of the guidance councilors said I could be a librarian or a journalist.

Do any of those options sound good to you? [It's not retail at least.]

Being a librarian sounds easy but boring as hell. [If he's fine with that though, who is she to argue?] How much would you be making from something like that though?

Probably a decent amount? I'll take something easy and boring over a dangerous job.

I don't want to risk my life over money. Do you get what I'm saying?